Happy birthday Jashan and parties at libraries

Happy birthday JB, may I take this opportunity to say your house is beautiful and your room is very bright and pink. I've always wanted to be those people with the extremely personalized rooms, you know the ones with photos everywhere and posters and signs that say Michelle's Room etc Lol but I would feel sad taking it all down if I moved out I think. Also it's a lot of effort LOL

JB's curtains are so lovely

BUT since I go my Polaroid I'm going to pin up all the pictures I take and I think that would add some personal character :)

Space cleared out for dancing with ncie gold streamers

Ooh here is my present to her, I feel quite proud of the wrapping hehe cos I think it looks quite cute :3

I decided to stick a little bow in the front for some random reason :) The food was amazing But I forgot to take any photos of it :( There were literally bowls of every kind of yummy stuff imaginable to snack on :) And a chocolate fountain too!

LOL on the way to her house in SS's car we saw JJ walking and looking very lost so I quickly texted him like ARE YOU LOST? do you need a ride?? haha but luckily he wasn't :P

I used my new GHD to curl my hair and seriously IT'S AMAZING usually it takes me about 40minutes with a curling iron but ghd only took me maybe 20 minutes? :)

It's a magical device

And I was looking for stuff to wear and I found this random blue floaty top I forgot even existed in my closet (I've never actually worn it) so I decided to wear it haha

Don't you love it when you're looking through your closet and you find random cool stuff you forgot you had? The top has really nice lacy details but you can't really see it in the pic :) And I wore the blue wedges my sis bought the other day with it so it was kinda matchy haha

Me and NS :) Blue wedges yay! LOL I don't have a full length mirror at home and I was so excited when Im saw JB's I decided to take a photo lulz. I am seriously so jelly of people that have full length mirrors. I used to have one in my room but I broke it, on my birthday too, about 3 years ago. Some people consider that bad luck but I don't believe in superstition that so I'm all safe :)

ANYWAY WOO HAPPY BIRTHDAY

There was also a huge gathering (party) in Castle Hill Library today. I guess that's what Baulko kids do, you know, casually spending our whole Saturdays at the library LOL.We're in Year 12, what life?? :P

But there were so many people today: KT, MP, RC, RH, GZ, CL, DM, BA and me :O We didn't even plan it, it was just a lot of people coming to the library on the same day. Well I guess in a way it's not so much a coincidence, but more of a response to the half yearlies coming up soon :(

Anyway, off to dinner! Sorry for the unusually long absence of blog posts :3 I blame English Advanced.

Love: Michelle

Edit: I am so glad a certain wonderful inidividual is all recovered now, HAPPY DAY, what fantastic news hehe :) YAY she's so strong and such a survivor

An Unpleasant Encounter (and a Lesson learnt)

Today (Well actually YESTERDAY now haha since it's 12:01am) I saw a woman and we had an unpleasant encounter.

She had a whitte dog in a pram and was towing the pram along, had a bag around her hips and was holding a money collecting tin. By her physical state, it was apparent that she was attempting to beg for money.

She came up to a crowd I was standing in, and everybody in that crowd walked away awkwardly as she was starting to talk about desperately needing a motel to stay in tonight. As I reached for my wallet, she smiled at me and I made small talk, asking her what her dog's name was. She said it was Misty.

This is where the encounter becomes unpleasant.

I give her most of my coins (including gold ones) but she spies a $20 note I had inside my wallet, which I needed for today (well yesterday). She looks down at the coins I gave her, puts them into the bulging hip-bag and thus rendering the collecting tin pitifully empty again, and her attitude turns sour.

Rather than the kind smile and grateful eyes she had for me, instead she snarls and insists I give her the note, whilst I stand there not knowing what to do. Expletives and uncouth language begins to spew out her mouth at me and she gets louder and louder, which undermines me and makes me feel guilty and selfish.

What do I do?

I stand there and take it. I don't even know why I didn't walk away or try talk back but she made me feel so horrible and selfish and the constant 'f-word' droppage is uncomfortable and just plain MEAN.

I don't know what I was supposed to do in this situation. Eventually she marches away (snarling more swear words about me under her breath) when it becomes apparent that her guilt trip attempt has me frozen and I won't hand over the note, although I did consider giving it I would only be able to return home and eat lunch that day if I, say, asked her for $10 change from a $20 which she wouldn't give me and I knew she would just get away with my $20.

And what I did after?

I don't think I handled it in the best way by walking dejected to the bathroom and bursting into tears, but that's what I did.

That was my unpleasant encounter, and I'm still contemplating how I feel about it. I don't feel any resentment or anger towards the woman, (although I did at first), nor am I any longer afraid of her but I do feel pity for her. How much of what she screamed at me was true, about her living on the streets and desperately needing a motel? What if I was in that situation (if it was true)? Wouldn't I want all the help I could get? Was I being selfish, seeing as I'm here typing this on a computer and she possibly doesn't know where her next meal is? Can I justify these things she shouted at me that I can't help, such as having a family and a house? Was I supposed to apologize for the wrongs the world has given her?

In the end though, if we consider perspective, our life on Earth isn't eternal. What we have here is just a foreward to the main event: Afterlife. That's why I think, even if in this life I end up with a far more wretched life than the one the woman seems to be having at the moment (possibly), we must remember everything happens for a reason, if I end up along that path so be it, and that GOD is always there for us whenever and wherever. So I pray that that woman, however at first unpleasant that encounter was, is better now or at least has calmed down, and that if screaming abuse at me in public helped her, then so be it.

I guess I can even see it as a blessing because I got to appreciate all that I already do have in life :)

Love: Michelle

I know today's blog entry was a little different to normal, so here are a few pictures of things I was planning to make this blog about before I had that encounter.

I got my glasses fixed (rememeber the ones Biscuit chewed and broke?)

My mum bought me a WHOLE BOX of Mi goreng. WHAT A TREAT!!!!! :D

My sister and I spent two hours finally taking down all the Christmas decorations :)